Rosie Belle Clark! She is here and has brown hair, blue eyes, heart shaped lips, a button nose, and long toes and fingers (like her dad)! She is 3 weeks old as of 2:27am tonight/tomorrow morning – its gone by soo fast but also feels like she has always been here. Rosie lovvves to be held and cuddled and doesn’t really like to sleep unless we are cuddling up together. Which I don’t mind at all and really really really love – I hope she is always a snuggler. Minus the fact that I am pretty much a walking zombie and haven’t gotten more than a 2 or 3 hour stretch of sleep at a time since she was born. David asks to take over at night but even though I am so tired I really love my nights with her.
As for her actual birth, I knew I would be induced so I went in the day before my induction date for a check up and she saw that my water had actual ruptured and I was slowlllly leaking. She told me to head to the hospital after that appt so I ran home to give Atticus kisses goodnight, grabbed my bags and headed to the hospital. David stayed home with A until our good friend came over to sleep at our place and watch him through the night. (thank heavens for good friends, that was SUCH a stress relief knowing he was in good hands.) When David got there I had been put on pitocin and was having contractions, eating ice, and was busy watching Ridiculousness 🙂 . They broke my water the rest of the way and a little while after I got my epidural. My epidural this time was SO painful!!! Last time with Atticus I remember being shocked how pain free it was but this time around was a different story. After I got my epidural I wanted peace and quiet so we turned off the TV and just sat and talked and waited. I loved that part. My mom and sisters got there and shortly after was push time.
When it came time for me to push I was so nervous I was shaking so bad. I was shivering and wasn’t even cold at all! I don’t know what exactly I was so nervous for but I just knew I wanted everything to go perfectly and hear her sweet cry right away. She told me she thought I would only have to push a few times and I kind of disregarded it because my last doc said the same thing with Atticus and I pushed for an hour. Sure enough after a just a few pushes she was out! They let me hold her right away for quite awhile before taking her away to get weighed and all that. I loved that they let me hold her for so long. (I only got to hold Atticus for a minute or so). It is the happiest feeling in the whole entire world getting to meet your baby the first time! I mean does anything REALLY beat that?? It was so so perfect. They weighed her, gave her a shot, cleaned her a bit, wrapped her up and brought her back to me. She instantly wanted to breastfeed and has been a champ at nursing since which has been SUCH a blessing to me.
I don’t know if you guys who were around when Atticus was born remember what he looked like but they truly are TWINS! It is so crazy how similar they look! They both came out with those swollen lips and big cheeks. Atticus seeing her for the first time was absolute gold. He stared at her with the sweetest smile for a while before coming over and trying to give her big hugs. He gives her LOTS of hugs, lots of kisses (new as of the last 48 hours), comes and holds her hands or touches her fingers, rocks her bassinet… I have been blown away by how much you can see he loves her. It makes my heart so happy it could explode. Anytime we hold her up next to him its an instant smile. Of course he sometimes gets a little TOO excited and wants to poke or pat a little too hard, especially those first few days but over the weeks we have been teaching him to be really soft and he picked it up so quick and we are always right there to make sure nothing goes crazy haha. But I am really really proud of him.
This recovery was night and day with my last. You wouldn’t think just over a pound in a baby would make THAT much of a difference but from the delivery to the recovery – it was absolutely, hands down, so much better and quicker. I was really thankful for that because it was really hard for me those first few days to not be able to pick up Atticus or take him outside on walks and whatnot. I was emotional about him when I got home because he all the sudden looked like such a big boy. I know this sounds so cheesy but any time I would touch his cheeks (okay seriously really cheesy prepare yourself, I was so hormonal) I would cry because they felt like big boy cheeks and not the squishy baby cheeks anymore. It was so weird, everything about him (looks) was different to me all the sudden and I would cry multiple times a day over the dumbest things. He is just so sweet and I am so proud of the person he is. I am also sooo happy my mom and sisters were around and took him out on little outings each day to make sure he felt special while we took care of Rosie.
I have my Rosie girl sleeping on me as I type this and it is pure heaven. All of us have been been snuggling her all day every day and she has been so amazing to have around. I can’t wait to watch her grow up and especially to watch her grow up with her big bro!!!! Love my babies so so so so much!
PS if you want to watch a little video we made, you can watch it here 🙂