It was so so hard to narrow down which pictures to share because Jessica did the perfect job of capturing every single detail and every time I look through all the photos I feel like I am completely reliving that night and feeling every emotion all over again and it is the best feeling on the planet remembering that night with such detail. Seriously, by far the best day of my life! Atticus came on June 18th at 3:35am and he weighed in at 9 pounds 5 ounces! I went to my 40 week doc appt. the day before and he stripped my membranes for the third time. The week before when I had them stripped I ended up going to the hospital because I was having a lot of bleeding (sorry if some of this is TMI, this is a birth story after all) and it ended up being nothing serious, just a ruptured blood vessel in my cervix but my doctor told me this time if I had any bleeding at all to go straight to the hospital. So when I noticed bleeding I headed to the hospital again just to be safe and again it ended up being nothing serious but because my doctor is freaking awesome, he kept me there and decided it was best to induce me anyways, which thank HEAVENS he did because I don’t think that baby would have come out til the following week when I had my original induction date set up and he would have been about a pound heavier, and lets be honest, no woman should have to birth a 10 pound baby! (sorry to my mom and David’s mom we were both 10 pound babies)
They got me going on pitocin and broke my water and when I started feeling contractions and when they got worse and worse I asked if I could get my epidural and soon after I was in literal heaven. I mean seriously, those things are so great. I was telling David they need to give you an epidural at the spa and then just let you lay in a hammock and get a facial haha because I have literally never felt so relaxed and so awesome before. BUT then hours later when it was getting close to push time I could feel my contractions and I could feel the pressure of the head coming out and started to really freak out. I was so so so scared and luckily David was there to calm me down and was so great but I was pretty dang nervous. Then I began pushing and pushing… I felt like my eyes were going to pop out of their sockets because I was pushing so hard. It was also horribly quiet in the room and I didn’t like that so I asked my sister to put on the Hall & Oats Pandora station and that kind of calmed me down, weirdly. I pushed for about an hour and towards the end I was really feeling everything it felt like. The nurse kept saying “feeling pressure is normal” and I was thinking, oh no sister, this is NOT just pressure. I know it would have been worse without the epidural but I was sure feeling a TON of pain. Then my doctor came in and I pushed for about 20 more minutes, which were the most painful, and then he said he needed to give me an episiotomy and I really started to freak out because I knew I would feel it, and I did. Then a couple more pushes and he was out – it was the strangest/coolest sensation feeling him slide out of me. Then I got to watch David cut the embellical cord and all the nurses and my mom and sister were saying how big he was! They let me hold him for a minute which was the most amazing feeling ever. Then the nurse had to take him away to clean him up and weigh him – my mom, sister, and David were all watching him get weighed and I was sitting there getting stitched up and it felt like eternity sitting there waiting to hold my baby again. Finally I got to hold him and I have never felt so much love in my entire life – for the baby and for David – it just doesn’t get better than that.
We switched hospital rooms and got a more comfortable bed and I got to nurse Atticus for the first time which was so so unbelievably amazing. I can’t even explain how much I love getting to nurse him.. the first time it was so instinctive for him to do it and I felt like we instantly had this amazing connection and it felt so special. Its my favorite thing to do and I feel so blessed that I get to have that time with him. (side note: I know not everyone can breast feed or some choose not to, I think any mom can have a special bond when feeding no matter how you feed and all moms know what is best for themselves and their baby, this is just my personal experience!)
We stayed a couple nights at the hospital and now we are home and loving every single second with this guy. We were cracking up because at first we were changing him shortly after I would nurse (we have since learned to wait a little longer haha) and right when we would open his diaper he would start peeing and poop would start squirting out, and I am talking it SQUIRTS, far! Haha and we just were dying laughing because somehow we thought it was kind of adorable and so funny. But we are just in heaven cuddling with him all day long, admiring all his little expressions, and having lazy days just the three of us. Four of us if you count Chauncey Chaunce has kind of been in denial that he doesn’t get all the attention now and actually doesn’t pay much attention to Atticus which has been really nice. He will come over and look at him but then just goes back to his bone – I am glad he is giving us space right now when he is so little but I am excited for them to be little buds one day.
So happy one week to our baby Atticus!! I sure love every second of being your mom
**All photos by Jessica Janae Photography