New years resolutions are always a toughie for me because if I make too many it overwhelms me and I tend to just kinda forget about them all. Kind of like when you are SO overwhelmed by the 1 million things on your to do list all in one day so you decide to just forget it all and take a nap. Or maybe thats just me. So this year I decided to really think about what I wanted my goal this year to be… and I have two of them.
One of them came the other night when I was telling David (my husband) this story about when I was in Fiji.. it was late at night and me and three friends were staying at this awesome resort called Mango Bay.. it was our second to last weekend so we decided to try and fit as much as we could into our time at that resort so we go out onto the beach and ‘borrow’ these kayaks that were there. My friend and I took one and the other two took the other and we rowed suuuper far out. Well, it seemed REALLY far.. who knows if it really was, all I know is I could hardly see the shore. It was the most gorgeous night ever, the stars were so bright and it was so dark so you could see every single one it seemed like and the moon was full and gorgeous and there we were sitting in a kayak in Fiji looking up at the most beautiful sky.
BUT…
I have this super big fear of sharks… and the ocean at night.. actually just the ocean in general (once I get past where I can no longer stand) is so scary to me. I started to freak out as we got further and further out and as soon as we stopped I was starting to really give myself anxiety.. I kept thinking, “what if a shark sees our kayak, hits it with his nose, knocks us over, and we are toast..” and a million other stupid, stupid hypothetical situations that now seem even more silly. Eventually after being out for like 15 minutes we rowed back in because I was being such a baby.
Anyways, I was telling David how I wish I could go back to that moment and just not worry about what ‘could’ happen and just enjoy that moment and soak it all up.
I do that a lot.. I over analyze and I think of the worst case scenario or I worry too much about going to the next place and getting the next thing done or worrying that so and so doesn’t like me so I make myself feel uncomfortable in a social setting or whatever that I kind of miss out on what could be amazing moments.
So that is one of my new years resolutions I guess… if any of that made any sense (maybe someone can relate?). To just enjoy moments and people and let go of some of my worries and reservations (I am extremely shy/reserved around people at first in case you didn’t know). And my other resolution I will keep to myself :)
Here is a little shoot I did with a friend of mine, Jenna Bechtholt.. you can visit her photography website: here

studded jacket: C/O Windsor / boots: Nordstrom / chambray top: C/O Windsor / Leather leggings: Windsor

Yes I know I am all Windsor’ed out in this post.. honestly, they have the best hidden gems.. those leather leggings I got for $16 (they are now $19.90) and I wear them at least 3 times a week. Love it.

xx

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  1. Hi Amber!

    I adore this look from top to toe! I can totally relate to what you mean about being in the moment… I tend to think everything through ahead and what could happen! Thanks for a great post and great style, I really enjoy reading your blog.

    Lauren xx
    http://www.stylelixir.com

  2. I can totally relate to you about spending an amazing moment worrying about what “could” be or “could” happen, instead of just enjoying what is actually going one. I do the same thing. And the ocean? I feel the EXACT same way! I love it, it’s beautiful, but it scares the crap out of me! Sharks, jellyfish, barracuda, anything I can’t see scares me.
    Anyway, love this outfit! Those leggings are fierce! I want some!
    I’m following you, and I love your blog! (BTW, congrats on getting married!)

    Shanna http://cheapersideoflife.blogspot.com

  3. Just found your blog and I am in love with your hair color! Do you get your hair done in SLC? Thanks! And good luck with the resolutions. Living in the moment is difficult, but so rewarding when it happens. :)

  4. Just found your blog and I am in love with your hair color! Do you get your hair done in SLC? Thanks! And good luck with the resolutions. Living in the moment is difficult, but so rewarding when it happens. :)

  5. I love that jacket! Except I can’t find that exact one on the website. Do you know if it was discontinued or on back order? Thanks!! :) PS. you are a gorgeous inside and out, welcome to the married club!

  6. you look awesome! I am so excited now that you are married, I have no idea what to wear anymore! (you know what I am talking about:) Thanks for the awesome windsor leggings recommend. I wear them at least 3 times a week too!
    Love ya!

  7. you look awesome! I am so excited now that you are married, I have no idea what to wear anymore! (you know what I am talking about:) Thanks for the awesome windsor leggings recommend. I wear them at least 3 times a week too!
    Love ya!

  8. I can totally relate to those anxious thoughts! But, I found that when I have them I ask myself these questions and I’m usually able to put myself in a right state of mind after… Hope these help you too!

    1. Is it true?
    2. Can you absolutely know that it’s 100% true?
    3. How do you react when you believe that thought?
    4. Who would you be without that thought?

  9. Just reading your story gave me anxiety! ha! I would have never even made into the kayak! I think this kinda something I’ll be working on as well this year. Trying not to fear the uncomfortable or unknown. I’ve had the following quote hanging on my calendar for the last few months and I think it’s a great reminder. “Worrying does not take away tomorrow’s troubles; it takes away today’s peace.” -unknown
    Good luck to you (and David!) in 2013! :)

  10. I love that resolution! I’m always worrying away today and not just simply enjoying it! Here’s to living in the moment and letting go of the worry!

  11. i’m new to your blog and i’m glad i found it!! Your resolution sounds just like one i made for myself, stop worrying and enjoy the moment! so you are not alone!